How Will We Be Remembered?

One of my old supervisor's from work past away last week. He was so young and full of life. He was one of the nicest person I had ever met. He always had a smile on his face, and always kept a smile on his face. I happened to be going to Walmart on the night of his viewing, and the road I take past the funeral home were his viewing was at. I was so amazed at the amount of cars that were at the funeral home. The parking lot was full, there were cars piled up half a block from the funeral home. This person had left such an amazing impact on people. This got me thinking about my own life. What impact have I made on people. How will people remember me when I pass on. People are not going to remember mainly you for the amount of money you had, or how big of a house you had. They will mainly remember what kind of person you are inside. I only hope that I will have half the impact on people's life as my supervisor's did on everyone. Joey you were a wonderful person, I am glad that I had known you. You will be missed greatly!!

Kaylee Update and other Ramblings

I took Kaylee to the doctor in Salt Lake on Monday. They really can't determine if she will end up with Diabetes, so I just have to watch her and do alot of praying. I had the great pleasure of having lunch with my brother while we were in Salt Lake. I just really admire my brother. I metioned before that my brother was diagnosed with type 1 Diabetes when he was eight. He has had Diabetes for about 16 years. He has never complained about having Diabetes. He just does what he needs to, to keep himself healthy. I really admire that. He is so good with Kaylee. We were sitting in the restaurant and he started to sing the Itsy Bitsy Spider to Kaylee. He did all the actions right in the middle of the restaurant. It was so cute, and I am so glad to have such a wonderful brother, and Kaylee is so lucky to have such a great uncle. I am really glad I have such and caring and understanding family. I was really scared how everyone would treat Kaylee, being that I am not married. My family has been awesome, and they just adore Kaylee. I know that this has brought me alot closer to my sisters. They help me out so much and I am very grateful.

My Worst Fear as a Mother

So one of my biggest fears as mother is happening. When my brother was just eight years old he was diagnosed with Insulin-Dependent Diabetes. Commonly known as Type 1 Diabetes. I always told myself I hope I never have to deal with this when I have children. A couple of months now Kaylee has been having a few symptoms. One of the major symptoms is extreme thirst. This is not just a kid drinking alot, this is extreme drinking. Kaylee wants a drink every five minutes, and I am going through diapers like crazy. I din't really think anything of it, and then one day a major light bulb went off in my head. I then started to randomly check Kaylee's blood sugar, and they were higher than they should be. I took her to her doctor and Monday, and they tested her blood, and it was higher than normal. I now have to take her to the Endrinconologist in Salt Lake on Monday. I am praying this is not what I think it is, and that I am just being a paranoid mother. I know that there could be alot of things worst than having a child with Diabetes, but this is not a fun disease, and it can have devastating complications. Trying to manage a 20 month old blood sugars will be so hard. Anyways I will have to see what the specialist will say on Monday.

Puke, Puke, and More Puke

I swear I have seen more puke in the last month, than I have in my entire lifetime. Kaylee has had this awful cough, which causes her to throw up everywhere. Now puke does not bug me, hence I am going into Nursing, but enough is enough. Not to mention it is really hard to watch your kid puke over and over again. I really don't complain to much as a mother, I am just sick of cleaning up the puke.

On a happy note everything else is going pretty well. I started school. My classes are pretty hard, but I love learning. I am also really excited that it is fall. I love fall. The air just smells fresh. I love the orange and brown colors. I also love Halloween. It takes on a whole new meaning once you have kids.

Pics of Kaylee

Here are some pics of Kaylee. We had fun eating Green Tea Ice Cream at Happy Sushi the other day. Kaylee also likes to drive the cart at Lee's Marketplace. There are some other radom pics of her that I took.

My Little Angel

I just wanted to write and say how blessed I am to have this little angel in my life.I I will admit and l. She has changed my life. Even though it is very hard to raise her on my own, I would not change it for the world. Kaylee is what keeps me going everyday. I know that no matter hard things get, or how bad people treat me, that my Kaylee will always be there loving me unconditionally. Words can't explain how much I love this little girl. She has these big brown eyes that could light up any room. Kaylee you are the light of my life. Thanks for being such a great kid!!

Potty Training, and other ramblings

So I started potty training Kaylee yesterday. I never thought in a million years she would go in the potty the first day, but she did it. I was so proud. This little girl is only 18 months. She has been taking her diapers off, and saying potty for about a month now. I decided that I would try on August 1. I hope there will be an ending to diapers yeah!!!!! On another note I had the opportunity to go to Salt Lake these last couple of days, and watch my old roomate graduate from Nursing school. I remember the day she got her acceptance letter. It was so neat to she her today, and she is going to be an RN. It was so insperational to me. I have two semesters at Utah State and then I will be applying to nursing school. I am crossing my fingers and hoping I get in. I am ready to be done with school., but I know that it will be well worth it when I am finished. My dream is to work at Primary Children's Hospital as an Diabetes Educator. I know I will get there some day, it has been a very long road so far.

July 27, 2008

Hi Everyone. This is my first blog. I swore that I would never do this, but here I am. I hope everyone had a good 24th of July. Kaylee and I went to the parade in North Logan, and then went to Willow Park for the festivites. It was pretty fun. Very very hot. It was fun though. Kaylee has been very sick for the last two weeks. She had Croupe, and then a UTI. Finally she is starting to feel better. Thank Goodness!!! These are just some radom pics of Kaylee. She had fun feeding the ducks at First Dam a couple of weeks ago.