When I started to throw out the remaining flowers from my fathers funeral, I did not realize just how hard this task would be. Besides my family this was the last piece of life I had left from my father. For the last month I have been stuck in a bubble, wondering if my father's passing was real, if I was just a dream. People, places and things just looked blurry as if I was standing still in time. I wondered if I was ever going to get back to living in reality again. It's hard to go on with everyday life, when someone was in your life for 31 years. While I was throwing out the flowers it really hit me that it was real and life will continue to go on. So now I started the process of coming out of the bubble and moving forward with my life. I was able keep some flowers and make this little arraignment. Life is hard but I am glad for each trial for I get stronger and stronger with each one. One of the greatest blessings in my life is being a mother to the sweetest little girl ever. In May she graduated from preschool and will be going into kindergarten. I can not believe she is five. Kaylee came in my life at a time that I needed her the most, she changed my life and I am so grateful for her. Sometimes I have questioned some of the things I have gone through in life but I have never questioned being a parent. I love my Kaylee bug!
